这是我的小小宝箱..专门收藏些心情的秘密..也许有一天我死了。。这宝箱就永远和我埋葬

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Movie, freedom


Sometimes i would like to see movie, cuz i did win two ticket from Ambank, but not happy is.... i cant go to see it...i wont able to go it...cuz my husband NO MOOD to go it...Good excuse huh?? Even got free movie ticket also cant go to see it...very pity for tat.. just go for Eye shopping... is it so hard to go it?? i didnt request to buy stuff!! just want to go shopping!! is it wrong? EYES SHOPPING!! No money No money No money... i want to go out work for my OWN pocket money... Since work here i DUN HAVE POCKET MONEY TO SPEND!!!! is it Pessimistic? like to spend my own cloth or for others.... honestly.. i dun have money!!! just wan to jalan jalan also cant??? life kinda SUCKS!!!!

Friday, November 19, 2010

19-11-2010 rain

i hate learning PHP! i hate it hate it hate it!!!
i dun like learning!!! i want to be ordinary clerk! i dun wan to be a teacher!
i hate teaching! i hate it!! i want to release myself from teaching life!
can i????

so desperate.....T.T

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Friday, November 5, 2010

05 Nov 2010 雨

05 Nov 2010 雨

有时候我真的觉得我并不适合结婚, 结婚前 压力不大, 反而结婚后压力变大了。
结婚后 我想呆在家的原因是 我想独自睡觉 ,独自娱乐,独自生活, 最主要的是我想帮轻我妈妈…我看到她工作到 连手握东西都有困难..我真的知道她的确很辛苦…但我很无奈..因为我现在是帮我丈夫一起工作..生意不怎么好, 要向我家借钱, 开口的时候,我整个头都是问号..到底要怎样问? 因为我从小到大没遇到这种问题, 我丈夫要求的时候我也蛮无奈…
很想拒绝但身为妻子那可以拒绝的?
我本身很自闭的性格..不想回答, 不想出声,不想参与争斗的情况..我不喜欢有人 逼我做我不喜欢的事情…尤其是学网页设计, 那些语言我根本就不喜欢碰, 我讨厌我真的真的很讨厌….我每晚不是心里流泪 那就是偷偷的眼泪..直接睡到为止…
结了婚 ..我的自由时间慢慢的减少了… 还是我自己真的选错了路吗???
可以选择的话….我宁愿不结婚…
但现在的我…还能选择吗?? 我好想死掉…

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